Xiariandlinkforever

After work, Axel turned up. Just like that , out of nowhere.
I didn't know that to say. I though we'd lost him for good.
We went up to the clock towe and talked for a while. I told him about Xion

The choked-up sensation has gone away

I sit up on the clock tower, bot no one comes. Not Axel, not even Xion. That weird lump in my throat won't go away
Something else is bothering me. This is gonna  sound crazy good thing this is a private diary!) but these pictures keep flashing throuhg my head.
Not all the time, just sometimes.... Ever since i collapsed

It happens when i'm awake, too--on missions-- so i don't think it's a dream. Where are the pictures coming from?

It sounds like the worst has come to pass: the whole C.O. team, wiped from existence.
It's hard to come to gripswith the idea that Axel is gone, I feel .....choked up?
I don't know what you'd call it. I've never had this kind of sensation.
I went up to the clock tower to have ice cream, but nobody else showed up

I must have missed a lot. It's like i had the longest dream. I woke up to find a bunch of seashells by my pillow. I counted them-- one for each day they said i was asleep.
I was wondering who left them there, but then when i got to the clock tower , Xion  gave e another one. I held it up to my ear . and i could hear the ocean.....Why did it sound so familiar?
The stuff i dreamed about felt strangely familiar, too i remember being in a white room with somebody the same age as me wearing red clothes....and then he sort of dusappeares into the white.

And there was a girl's voice-- she said she knew i'd be "snoozing". Why would she know that?
The voice was a little like Xion's

I only remember part of this day. I heard somebody sent to Castle Oblivion was terminated.
Saïx said it may have been Axel.
I tried to ask Xigbar about iy on the day's  mission, and he said nothing's left of Nobodies once we're gone, because we have no hearts to leave behind. I don't remember much after that.
They say i collapsed and wouldn't wake up.....